"I gonna be freee"

Today Maxwell turns three or in his words "FREEEE." I can't believe that three years ago at this moment I would be meeting Maxwell in just 7 hours. Right about now three years ago my water is about to break and then labor really began. I can't believe that three years ago I could decide I wanted to do something like go see a movie or go take a nap and I would not have any little thing holding me back from doing those things. I don't really miss those days at all. When I am packing diaper bags and awake at 2 am, and elbows deep in a diaper I have to laugh because to someone who isn't a mother maybe those things seem like no fun but I am grateful to know how blessed I am to even have these little ones. People who choose not to have children can not even comprehend the joy they bring. When they learn something new, hold their arms out to you for the first time, or say your name for the first time it just makes you realize how amazing life is and why we are here working so hard to raise them. I love my Maxwell so much. Anyone close to us knows how much life is in him. He is so funny so disobedient at times but always loving even at his worst moments. I have a new found love for him now that we have Essa. He just loves his baby brother. He calls him "little buddy'' and it makes me want to cry like a baby. When they are in the bath together or playing in the toy room together I actually do cry. Just looking at how much Essa is learning from him is so neat (but also kinda scary) To my Maxwell on his birthday I hope you know I love you, I am pleased with how you are getting better each day. I grow up more than you each day because you teach me selflessness and you motivate me to be better each day. I love how you always want a haircut after a client leaves (sometimes I have multiple clients a day resulting in multiple fake haircuts) I love seeing your cute bare butt because we are potty training and you love to take off your underwear but not so much put them back on. I love how I find you sometimes in the mornings in your brothers crib. I love how you first thing in the morning demand mealk (milk) and pink cereal (fruit loops) and how you always want chicken but would never consider eating it without ranch. I love how you love the movie Cars so much I hear the songs from it in my sleep and I love how if we are in public and you hear a song from the soundtrack you light up and smile so big. I love hearing your voice on the other end of the phone. I love your reaction when dad gets home from work. I love how you like to know every ones name and are always concerned where everyone in your family is at any given moment. I love that after your weekly nosebleed you like a bandaid right across your nose! I love that you always remember to say prayers even when I am mid bite you will remind me that it has not been blessed. I love being able to see your development first hand. Most of all I love that you always forgive me at the end of the day for my shortcomings and you love me the same no matter what. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAXWELL!!!